And then I realized I have tons of drafts under my posts section, those that I type a lot whenever I was feeling fucked up. Then I'll sort of try to calm down and end up not posting them cause after typing out all that I had to let out, I always felt a little better. A little.

Wow there's really so many of such posts over the past year, it's kind of painful and sadistic to read them.

Just now while scrolling down the 'edit posts' tab, I came across a post created by P in Feb 2010, we were still together then. That day he was overseas and had created a draft post in hope I'd see his message and I did, surprisingly. I remember I was having a super bad day at school and I don't usually go to the 'edit posts' tab but that day I just decided to and chanced upon his message, that made me so so very happy. Afew days later, he surprised me at the school's back gate the day after he returned to Singapore and I was so happy when I saw him that I ran towards him..

But yeah that was Feb 2010.